Prying Loose from the Noose of Conditioning
It seems at times that our minds can be endlessly complicated by a multitude of stimuli, any part of which can trigger a response from our conditioned programming. In his book, “2012 The Return of Quetzalcoatl,” Daniel Pinchbeck, consciousness researcher, and bestselling author agrees:
“Over time, conditioning creates a probabilistic bias in favor of past patterns of response. Once a task has been learned, then for any situation involving it, the likelihood the corresponding memory will trigger a conditioned response is 100 percent.” Yikes.
Today, I was having trouble completing a simple technological task (not an uncommon occurrence) when I noticed my immediate tendency to self-deprecate. “How can I be so stupid?” Why can’t I figure this out?” “What’s wrong with me?” Another “Why can’t I get this right” response came up when the top rack to my dishwasher kept coming off track, causing everything to topple. (I will not repeat the expletive’s that followed.)
I decided to sit a bit tonight and see if I could uncover the unconscious culprit that might be haunting me with echoes of the past—persuading me to be influenced by some false beliefs (that I am stupid). I flashed back to an experience when I was in the first grade—a really long time ago. My teacher’s name was Miss Stone (quite an appropriate title). Even though she was super scary I’d pretty much managed to escape her wrath—that is until almost the end of that very long school year. It was May 11, my birthday. I was decked out in my party duds, feelin’ all sassy and spirited—not the least bit interested in concentrating on my arithmetic. (That’s what we called “math” back then.) Miss Stone, seeing I’d failed to complete my numbers lesson, approached me and proceeded to lift me out of my chair by my arms and shake the living s***t out of me. I can to this day still feel my sense of horror and shame.
Can I trace my feelings of inadequacy when it comes to technology, math, and resolving broken dishwasher parts all the way back to that incident with Miss Stone? Possibly. But what really matters is that I have an awareness of my tendencies so I can catch myself in any behavior or self-talk that isn’t supportive.
By waking up to habits or propensities that may not serve you, you realize that it’s not the situation outside of yourself that should be your point of focus. It is rather how you are becoming more conscious in the midst of it all, regardless of how things may appear. When you are able to overrule your emotional responses with reasoning and discernment, you are on the precipice of expanding into an upgrade in your operating system.
Every time you can be alert to a pattern of behavior that no longer serves you, you are loosening the noose of your conditioned responses. Practice, practice, practice—and as you do, keep witnessing your progress. It is happening. Promise.
Believing in you!